Project Beacon

Last days of any milestone in life are always worth the documentation - orientation is no exception - but I chose not to write about ACSiting race, or the cactus gifts, or the ridiculous things we did in public, simply because it isn't worth the effort expressing in words what has already been so richly imprinted in every person's mind.

4.9 regrouped for soccer yesterday, our collective unity still in place. The yellow-blue soccer ball that sits in the corner of my home - the 4.9 ball - a symbol of that collective identity. An identity that we strive to preserve -

But inevitability threatens.

There will be no further elaboration, but many lament the fact of life. We have to move on (or is 'moving on' simply a optimistic twist on 'leaving behind'?), and we will go our separate ways. Accept the inevitability, life only happens once, and there will never again be the sparks of 4.9. I believe at most we will keep a small flame going, but fireworks will probably be an impossibility, friendships diluted by reality.

But who knows. I may be wrong. And never forget that we will spend an eternity together - in fellowship with our Lord in heaven.

Project Beacon. May ACS be a beacon of truth and light - a true beacon, not a travesty of one. A Friend (who declines to be mentioned) has taken the great burden, and many of us have heeded God's call to support him. How was I chosen as his accountability partner, I shall never know, but may God provide me with the grace to see him through.

(edittt (thanks kenneth): A beacon not to draw men unto ourselves - but to point them toward the source of all light, that is God, that is Jesus. May we decrease as He increases!)

Really, it's been a time of earnestly seeking God and trying to find Him - I do implore all to do the same. I find myself wrought with many worldy distractions and desires, but may God bring down such walls of pretences, and behind all our pride, achievements and progress lies a heart which is fully human, and that desperately needs God.

Proverbs 2:3 - 2:5

3 and if you call out for insight
and cry aloud for understanding,

4 and if you look for it as for silver
and search for it as for hidden treasure,

5 then you will understand the fear of the LORD
and find the knowledge of God.

Teach us this fear Lord. And help us to find that knowledge of you. We have to cry. We have to be humble. And we have to be desperate.