Tuesday, February 28, 2006

Tell you guys a story...from TA1 camp..hmm

So we were going back from Dover Market....needed to rush back b4 the others to practise for worship session...so we chiong. Now the others were taking the long route back from Dover Market out to the road and then one big round back into the school, well we weren't that stupid were we?

so we decided to take the back gate way...you know the 'illegal' way involving climbing underneath the back gate at the PE field where we play soccer. I've done it tons of times when going to piano lesson every tuesday...but i guess it was just a bad day for us to go. Initially we tried the gate at the basketball court but it was too small and narrow for ppl like Kester...big nono, unfortunately we did not realise that we shld have used that gate....

we went back to the other gate and one by one slid under. Me and fab still outside and abt to enter when we heard from the boarding school a shout....a familiar male teacher's voice..saying...'STOP! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING?!! COME HERE NOW!!'. We were had....so we went there quickly and it was...well Mr See Teck Hock. We got interrogated...scolded for 'double standards' and reprimanded for being a bad example of BB. Welll....in the end me and fab ran the whole way round (what you would run for PE) and got back in time for worship. well....wad a day.

more escapades in the future :)

Sunday, February 26, 2006

TA1 camp...sianness and i slept from 8 to 8 (that is 12 hours...not zero) :)

elaborate another day?

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

ummm many days without a post. this is terrible.

emotional problems....you might think, how's it possible that a guy like Tim who has 'got it made' (according to one of the options in the PC thing) can ever score a 38, or have emotional problems for that matter? well truth is it is possible, whether or not the test thingy is a accurate measure of it or not. unfortunately i must confess that i slip into moments of depression.

not like i whip a knife out or do something spectular, or take the lift to the thirteenth floor and jump...but it's just sometimes you think about certain things and it makes ya wanna just cry and ask why. Then again, entertaining such thoughts only results in depression, so i've made a vow to now think of such things again. Depressed about friends...or about social life...or about...well...stuff.

Then recently i realised...it isn't that bad...i've got ppl around who truly love me for who I am. Especially God..Jesus, and the friends that he has given me. Sure i feel like a doormat at times..and sometimes i question the motives of ppl when they are nice to me. I think i just think too much...too much self-pity and useless negative thinking. But that's been dumped today....and i live life looking on it with a new perspective i guess.

I'm introverted...that's wad my parents say, i don't deny it, but i don't agree entirely. But seriously maybe i should stop being a loser GEP who doesn't go out with ppl and start having some sort of social life. Now why would someone not wanna go out with ppl....maybe it's low esteem...so you don't like ppl to look at you or sth...or you just like to do stuff alone...or it's just sian...i don't know...maybe i'm all three. I can't say my esteem is very high...maybe due to the events of the past..sigh

Aren't there things you would like to say but you know you can't say them for the fear of being rejected? i feel that way.

Monday, February 20, 2006

i must have psychological problems...i scored a 38!! it was actually 45 then i rethought a few things. Justin got 7...that's cheating. Anyway comment on this another day...but i must really be suffering from depression

Friday, February 17, 2006

Maybe i should just be myself....good old boring Tim self...that means

1) to keep on mugging
2) to be less random
3) to keep cracking useless GEP pun jokes
4) to be 'too nice' to ppl
5) to be a goodie-two-shoes

I admit it...these are the qualities that i think i possess...lol and i'm not exactly proud of them. But i guess ppl like to accept ya just the way you are....wad ppl hate most is an outer mask that hides the true inner being. :P Or maybe i shld just do the Johari window thingy to find out more about my 'blind spots'. Then again that may just be a terrible idea.

Personality is definitely more important than outlook...looks are superficial but frankly speaking they are what are attractive in the first place. unfortunately for those not blessed with really good looks (aka me), well we just have to try and speak up so that ppl can understand and see our personality...problem is many of us are just introverted. :(

Slipping into fits of depression at times...thank goodness thinking about and speaking to God makes all the difference...his love for us is just so great (and i'm not being an escapist Nietzche!). Or simply thinking of the blessings he has given me (yes...those are you guys my frens...)....it just brings a smile on my face.

But good things nvr last...one day we will all have to go our separate ways....sigh...one day we'll all be split apart...the cruelties of society. But we'll spend an eternity in heaven! Don't forget one another!

thanks guys *smiles*

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

oh and in a desperate attempt to add to my post count...i forgot to add.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DING!!!!

how great to have a holiday on your birthday...then again Ding has piano lesson :(
It is once again the traditional ACSI holiday for O lvls...i think they give it out of pressure and tradition rather than outstanding results nowadays. And as usual i have tuition on the holidays...just great. We miss a lot of periods today but we get a load of hwk (ironically not Chinese hwk). Gosh wad do you do on a holiday...it's super sian even at 11am in the morning.

David Chan auditioning for Haven...give him a chance...:P (Watermelon...watermelon...remember that campfire song?)

well well...there really isn't anything to blog about right? Slept at 2 am yesterday...i really am a bit dazed.

Tim is only good for mugging...nvr forget that... in terms of general knowledge or IQ i'm probably zilch (now how random is that). Ok it wasn't very random...i shall try for something more random...

Fippo!

Monday, February 13, 2006

haiz...it's been a long day.

Bible study with Mr Jonathan Ng and Mr Simon Bongard....a bit weird...but at least Kester was there as well. I don't know...just a bit disappointed at the turnout. But there's no need to i guess. God doesn't measure success by the number of people present. Here I am ...Send Me...a prayer i prayed, and though there were so few people, and i came late, and Mr J Ng was supposed to be on MC...well everything kinda worked out fine :) That's one of the ways i've seen God working today.

Well as i told Ding today...there's a side to all of us which no one ever notices or will ever understand....as for me...i'm afraid it's true as well. Probably wad my parents would term as an introvert...but i find that sometimes i don't quite fit in and sometimes the number of true frens i have are few...and will soon go. Attributing alot of this traits to a pretty troubled childhood i guess. There are certain things that ppl will nvr understand, ever had the feeling of wanting to let go but at the same time not wanting to.

BB guys are weird. Or so ChongWee claims. Perhaps i am weird, well everyone is to some extent. And if i were courageous enough to stand out and speak abt something...welll then the weirdness may even come as a nasty shock to many. Lol you wouldn't believe what goes on in this mind of mine :)

kk gtg. Happy Valentines' Day to all who have a valentine. Me? most definitely not in a long long time

Friday, February 10, 2006

been realllyyyy busy guys...i'm sry i can't blog...i really wish i could...struggle to juggle BB...schoolwork and life...and Christian living. It's such a stressful life. Everyday waking up and rushing through 25 minutes of QT only to be almost late for school everyday. Everyday looking forward to that little soccer session every recess....but besides that...life is such a chore. Thank God for frens...they make school worthwhile.

Now and then i take a trip down Ecclesiastes....life really is meaningless...even blogging is meaningless...the only thing that matters is wad is eternal.

Which goes to show the lack of elation i had today...even though i got that A1 Distinction for Chinese O Lvls....(and i didn't react like the 2 jokers who went...WOAH!). But i'm really grateful to God for this merciful blessing :)

ummm the latest Get Real show....wow thaat was just weird....put GEPers in a very bad light...and here i would like to defend us by saying that we are just like the rest..so give us a chance...in fact sometimes GEPers feel the same way about the express ppl....we just don't express it....ahaha wadever...GEP joke.

kk i gtg...soz guys

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

boo...so sean and i are trying to start a module for a band...but shld we focus on a Woship band or just a typical band playing all kinds of music...? or shld i go into teaching card tricks/guitar....lol. That'll be interesting but the 10 hrs time given is restrictive both ways....and i think we didn't get to contact mrs sandra sim so we may not get to do it :(

ummm inter class soccer....GEPs!!! ok no...we just wanna prove that we are normal ppl with similar interests and ability to do well...i mean everyone deserves a chance right? just hope there's no rain this time....lineup includes star players like Patrick Leow!! HOORAY! actually he ain't that bad k?

ummm Arjun's tamil teacher Mdm Rina i think is our AEM mentor...joy...and i have no idea who to shadow...Fab has suggested shadowing a Private Eye...but i think that is just weird.

kk no time to lose...gtg study for physics and start that short story!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Awesome God

hmmm b4 this week...i didn't know that 'Awesome God' had a verse....i'll post it for today :P...it's supposed to be a rap...maybe i'll try to learn the rap and we'll rap along :P

When He rolls up His sleeves

He ain’t just putting on the ritz

(Refrain) - Our God is an awesome God

There’s thunder in his footsteps and lightening in his fists

(Refrain)

and the Lord wasn’t joking

when He kicked them out of Eden

and it wasn’t for no reason

that He shed His blood

His return is very close

And so you better be believing that

(Refrain)

(Chorus)

Our God is an awesome God

He reigns from heaven above

With wisdom, power, and love

Our God is an awesome God

When the sky was starless

In the void of the night

(Refrain) – Our God is an awesome God


he spoke into the darkness

and created the light

(Refrain)

The judgement and the wrath

He poured out on Sodom

The mercy and the grace

He gave us at the cross

I hope that we haven’t

Too quickly forgotten that

(Refrain)
(Chorus)

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Quotes of the Day!!!

Quotes of the day (not much time to blog sry)

David Chan: 'I just read your blog posts yesterday and they were quite good'

Ohmygosh.....my blog is one year old and that's the first time david ever posted on my blog...i bet if i reverted back to my unmozilla-friendly watermelon girl skin...he'll love it even more! anyway thanks for bringing some life to my blog :P

Gen Huong: 'Nice blogskins...i was scrolling then i saw LimClanStrummer..'

Ummm....a late thank you for the compliments...but i thought i said i designed these skins like back in november....ummm sean also just realised....anyway here are the links if any of you guys are interested...i'm not that good a designer but i try my best k?

Into My Tummy (pink puff thing)--resubmitted
LimClanStrummer: Happy Memories [anime]
LimClanStrummer: Springtime..Cheer Up! [anime]-IE
LimClanStrummer~ I'll Always Be There...
LimClanStrummer~Chronicles Of Metru Nui
LimClanStrummer~Cute Hamsters Gone Nuts
LimClanStrummer~Into My Tummy (pink puff thing)
LimClanStrummer~It's Diet Time!!
LimClanStrummer~Jesus Is the Reason for the Season
LimClanStrummer~Kingdom Hearts COM: Heartless...
LimClanStrummer~The Gang Is On the Loose
LimClanStrummer~Winter Nostalgia
LimCS: Springtime..Cheer Up! [anime] -resubmitted

Current total downloads: 244 :) yay

and the last and final cool quote...
Mdm Carol Low: 'There are ALWAYS exceptions in chem'

yea yea we all agree don't we....but it does sound a bit ironic....