Live Praise!

I must explain my coming inactivity. Church camp. Yep it's gonna leave me with soooo little time for hwk, but it'll be a meaningful time i guess...back with ppl from my mother church (not too comfy but i'll adjust hopefully), The theme's 'Times of Refreshing', a good time for reflection and comtemplation, to get close to God again. Wow, maybe i'll see a shooting star...no maybe two!!

Then out of the church camp comes a 2 day retreat to malacca with family, this means:

1) Tiger biscuits: yes, small but incredibly addictive with coffee :D
2) Buy a new radio? or maybe not...i don't quite trust cheap giant goods anymore :D
3) Movie hopping. Yes pay one fee for a certain movie, if you don't like it, just hop to another. It's really simply done k?
4) At risk of a Tuas traffic jam...oh noes. Lucky it's not sunday night
5) NOOOO TIMEEE TO DDOOOO HWWWKKK!!

Sent an email to ding...reply plz plz plz :D

Well... time for some good reflection and prayer about the past year...just got something from Mr Jonas Chow, to reflect on my role as CE and the Live Praise in BB. Just like to post some reflection here i guess.

1) What level of intimacy in worshipping God are you at now?
wow, i would say this is always a question i struggle to ask myself. It's difficult to say, one moment you're just so close to God, one moment you tend to slip away so easily. God has helped me grow over the years, but in a 'rising sine curve manner' if that's what i call it....rising dropping rising dropping, but nevertheless rising higher as a whole :D. And i'm grateful that as i look back i realise that i've matured spiritually, but there's still a really long way to go. And the process is always so hard to maintain. I can only keep growing by God's grace and transforming power. Hopefully, God can give me that grace to worship Him through my thoughts, actions and everyday life. Keep helping me grow Lord!! Not to stagnate! not to degrade! but to grow!

2) What level of intimacy in worshipping God is the Company at?
don't want to make sweeping statements here...but as a whole, the company really hasn't changed much, sometimes i'm a little discouraged here a there to see little growth. But that's relying on my senses and my idea of 'growth'...i would think that God is definitely working to raise that level of intimacy all the time. In recent years, the company is moving towards a more God-centred company, moving away from a focus on physical discipline, to a focus on spiritual discipline. We still have to 'return to worship', it'll be a long run, i might not be able to see it happen, but it will happen by God's grace, we're moving somewhere. Currently, we're growing..not quite there yet :D but it's promising.

3) Where do you think God is leading us in the coming year?
Over the years, if there's anything i've found out, it's that God only leads us in one direction, closer to Him. Question is how? and that's something we'll have to wait to find out, and seek God for direction. I'll need to pray about this one. But all we know now, is that the main idea is that God always leads His people back to Him, he is most definitely not a God who will let us astray

4) What is good/bad/good but could be improved about our Company's Live Praise?
Good...i'd have to say the unity and the overall spirit, we're always together, and emotional in singing, especially the company theme song. Also, there's little focus on the music as simple instruments are used and the music played is not too loud/jarring. We're always gathered as a bunch, not seated at tables or anything. It's not a performance but truely singspiration. The problem is leading singspiration to worship. that requires understand the words of the song, meditating on those words, feeling the emotion behind the song, and truely offering those words up to God. Sometimes, we get stuck at a superficial level of 'worship' and that's something our Company has to work toward - spurring each other on to true worship.

5)What resources are available for us and are these resources helpful?
Resources a plenty: instruments enough, God provides through different people musical instruments and talents. And I trust He'll provide another group of people who will understand the true meaning of worship and so be able to lead the company into worship. Resources are definitely helpful in achieving the purposes set out. But we have to ask God first on how He wants to utilize these resources. Let's not run ahead of Him.

6) What resources do we need to achieve our direction?
I think we've pretty much got what we need...God's been faithful in providing for us already, anything else is pretty much a 'good to have' and not a 'must have'

7) Where do we go from here?
A question that prompts me to realise that i have a lot of praying to do. And that's probably what's next, where we have to go next is to grow closer to God first, to pray more and to know Him better, something which i struggle with day by day...so much so it makes me feel like a hypocrite typing these things out. But i pray God will guide me, perhaps this church camp will be a time of revival for me, to regain that first love :D.

I love you God, though sometimes it doesn't show, I love you, and i'm sure we all do :D Don't give up in that christian life. It'll be worth it to hear God say 'well done good and faithful servant' and to live with Him and all fellow christians forever!