Speechless Love

NUH never did have a significance to many of us, not until today. Mdm Loo had to go for an operation yesterday, warded in a little room in NUH, grey-walled, tiny, lonely, the ray of light that managed to squeeze through the impersonal curtains did little to brighten the room....Ironically, whilst on one side there was suffering, worry and pain. In school, there was only celebration and joy. Students elated at the prospect of future free periods....

We visited Mdm Loo. In all honestly i expected her to be able to speak at least, maybe a little weak but able to speak, to express herself at least. But what awaited us shocked the daylights out of us. Across the curtains of Ward 88, she sat in a chair, legs propped, fed by tubes, uncountable tubes, with a rhythmic pumping of liquid and release of pressure in the gauge....hynoptical, time passed so slow as we waited for the rest to arrive. Whilst there, we could only look on, speechless at her condition as she struggled even to thank us for coming, writing her feelings out on Derek's notebook. This was a teacher who inspired us, truly truly loved us, she was so strong in our eyes, yet now, she was at the mercy of a terrible ailment. We could only watch on.

Prayer. It was the only way we could leave something with her. God's presence, oh may He just fill that place with warmth and with joy again...somehow. Even as we left, we were all visually affected, some more than others, words of comfort exchanged between one another, yet it was quiet, painfully quiet, solemn, and whilst i tried to smile a little here and there...it was perhaps inappropriate....and definitely futile. Everyone was in shock. And we stood there, sat there, reflecting and prayerful.

Mdm Loo, please get well soon. We're all waiting for you earnestly to return.

Joy in Adversity, i guess something we'll all get to learn this time. The joy of the Lord be her strength, and ours as well.

God will make a way
When there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With Love and Strength for each new day
He will make a way
He will make a way

Indeed He will...somehow...let's not lose that faith in Him :D and learn to smile!!!