ok...the band, i'm not sure whether it'll ever materialize....i thought we could play for my church, but my Dad wasn't that serious when he agreed that day...maybe it's coz he's afraid we will bring in comtemp. songs or sth, or maybe he thinks we're not ready yet...which is true...but we need chances to improve right?

He says that we can't have high expectations like leading a worship session all by ourselves....after all it's weird for the congregation to see someone they don't know and be led by them into worship....and we're youth too, they think like...'oh look a bunch of rowdy youths who are not mature enough' or sth along that line...i mean i'm quite sure some of the ppl will think that....

The schedule for my church is ok liao....it's well organized.....my church is 2 years old liao, it doesn't need as much help as it did a long time ago...so maybe we can't be slotted in...it's disappointing to be rejected again....i dunno it just feels so hopeless when you wanna do sth so bad...you work so hard to try to materialize your idea and your good will and then you get rejected....maybe it's not God's will for us to play at my church....

Anyway...my dad suggests sth, that we start slow...maybe he can lead the worship session and he can choose the songs to play and all, and we are just the backup band playing...sure, the thrill of being a grp is lost...but at least we get to play and serve God....So how? You guys wanna do this?
After all, everything starts from somewhere, after the congregation is accustomed to us...then maybe we can slowly take over. Or maybe we shld look for some other church that is more open to newcomers and changes, that may be better for us...keep praying ok guys? we need to find out where God wants us, and if he doesn't want us as well, then we shld just scrap this idea...

Well....let's talk abt other more happy things...this fri gonna go sean's place to do the R & J skit...we wanna do the balcony scene and sabotage ian and derek...derek's fine but ian was like No way so yeah me and sean couldn't carry out our brilliant evil plan....anyway...one of the only all-male character scenes in R&J is the Mercutio Vs Tybalt one....but ian and fab want a scene with 2 female characters so they can act in drag....scary....ian's a little funny lah...he wanna act drag so we let him...then when the time comes...he doesn't wanna act...so fickle minded....like last yr medusa...remember ian??

kk...cya tomorrow...now i go watch LOTR on TV and then go read metamorphosis...lang arts such a bore....