fippo abduction

sitting alone in front of the computer. typing again. on this hot afternoon - reminiscent of the many many in ChongQing - without dear cheesy by my side (yes John Tay you better return her quick quick). days have gone by like a flash - after many days of wah chee lunches, cramming studies into this little mind of mine, taking time out to spend with friends, countless hours in the quiet zone of the NUS library - finally there is time to take stock again.

what amazes me is how quickly we forget our heavenly existence sometimes. yesterday i just sat down after a long day of studies and worry - and i pondered. pondered. pondered. and pondering culminates in the realization that we need to spend more time with God - we are really not home yet. I recall an old song by Christian rock band Petra that went something like this:

we are pilgrims, in a strange land
we are so far, from our homeland
with each passing day it seems so clear
this world will never want us here
we're not welcome in this world of wrong
we are foreigners who don't belong

we are strangers, we are aliens
we are not of this world

we are envoys, we must tarry
with this message we must carry
there's so much to do before we leave
with so many more who may believe
our mission can never fail
and the gates of hell will not prevail!

we are strangers, we are aliens
we are not of this world

Jesus told us men would hate us
but we must be of good cheer
He has overcome this world of darkness
soon we will depart from here

so far from our homeland. yet sometimes i realize how easily we get caught up with the things of this world - how we start planning for our futures that are so distant, how we start speculating the events of years to come (and perhaps even tomorrow), how we take for granted the existence of tomorrow; how we worry and get anxious about things that won't happen any time sooner.

and we get satisfied with the world so easily - happy with the many things around us - that we forget that there's still so much to do. we are envoys, we must carry the message of Christ to those around us! urgently! urgently! i think, the danger is settling for satisfaction.

and yesterday i knelt and realized that i had done quite little (nothing perhaps) that was eternally significant in a long while.

maybe it was the lack of opportunity; but perhaps i had not prayed hard enough for opportunity.

sigh. i tried. the email to ChongQing couldn't make it ):

pray for more passion. more urgency. set our minds on things above (:

we are not home yet friends.